As Thanksgiving approaches, everyone gives thanks for what they have in their lives. I am no different. The cliche says that there are so many things to be thankful for. It is true that people should be thankful for what they have. You see it everyday though that people want more and more and are never happy with what they have. The more stuff they have or buy, they happier they think they are. It only makes them want more. Ipads, mini ipad, iphone 5, 6, 7 or whatever number they are on now. Pretty soon there will be an icar, and how many people will be in line for that when it comes out. IHP
Not too long ago, I was having deep conversation with someone about our lives. I say daily that I am too old, I know I am immature, I don't have much of anything, I am in debt up to my ass, and I probably won't find anyone because of all these reasons. And this person said to me, "all those reasons is what makes you who you are. Age is just a number, you are fun and make others have fun, everyone is in debt, and a girl would be dumb not to take you because you are a great person." I shrugged it off of course like I always do, even though I give others advice to take compliments and roll with them. Hypocrite haha. But it is true, without all that, who the hell would I be? So what I take as flaws in me, others look at it differently.
For me though, I do have thanks to throw out there. I am taking all the good and all the bad this year, and saying thank you. Without all of it, who knows what would have happened or where I would be at. To all the people who have supported me and the path I have chosen for my next move, I will do my best and try not to let you down. To all the doubters and people who have said I am nothing and never will amount to anything, thank you for the motivation.
Come Monday, all the hard work from the last year gets put into play. From the BS I went through at the end of last year to the horrid first boot camp of NPTI to now, I am ready to give all the appreciation to those who deserve it. Nothing has been forgotten.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
It's a long road but nothing can stop us
So as you all know, I just finished a crazy race. From Saratoga to Lake Placid. Most people start with a 5k...... however, I decided to go big. Why not right? As Kelly Clarkson says, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Kelly, you go girl. Never running a race before, I had no idea what to expect. So I joined a team, of which I knew 3 people out of 12. Not an issue with me since I grow on people quickly.....I think.
I did my training, which I thought was good enough. Boy was I wrong. I had 3 legs of the race which totalled around 19 miles.
Race time started and it rained and rained and rained......by the end we were wet, tired, sore, (well some of us.....Dan, Jason, and myself), but most of all, excited that we as a team completed something that most people couldn't think possible.
Support came from all the teams, the volunteers, and friends and families. Seeing runner's faces light up as vans beeped their horns as they drove by, made the runs easier. Some of the routes were very lonely and dark, so they needed any pick me up, and they deserved and earned it.
Speaking of a pick me up, there was a moment at around 3 or 4 in the morning where some of us were crashing and just burnt out, and a song came on the radio that just revived us, Gangnam Style!!! Love that song. We got out and blasted it, did the dance and gave us life again.
At the end, watching teams running all together crossing that finish line cold, wet, tired, and laughing and having a great time will always stick in my head. When our team, Got The Runs, finished, I was so happy that I was part of a team that accepted me in without knowing me, and by the end we just ran 193 miles together and crossed the finish line as one.
It was such a great experience that I am ready for the next one. Cape Cod here we come.
I will be adding another challenge in as well, maybe a Spartan Race or something. I know I can push myself to some pretty tough extremes after this race.
To my team, thanks for this chance and the next one will be better. You guys were great and very supportive. Couldn't have asked for a better group of people to do that with for a first race. Can't wait for the Cape.
I will leave you with this: challenge yourself and push yourself to the limit and once you finish that challenge, you can finish anything.
#ragswag
Saturday, August 18, 2012
All Summer Long
Well hello again everyone. I hope you all had a wonderful and exciting summer. I know I did here at Silver Bay, like always of course. It was a great summer for me to relax and to just be me. There was nothing holding me back this time from being me. There were some challenges along the way, but overall it was worth it. I got to meet some amazing people, reconnect with old friends, and did a lot of just sitting and thinking. And having that time to just unwind and think made me realize where my head is at this point in life.
But now the summer is over. I have started watching people leave, many more leave today. Some I got really close with and will miss them. But like every year, no matter what, next time you see them, it will pick up right where it left off. It's never good bye, it's see you later.
Summer turns to fall, and you watch change happen right in front of your eyes. The leaves change colors, the lake cools down quickly, squirrels and chipmunks storing their food for the winter, the sounds of camp are gone. It is time to get ready for the next summer. We all cannot wait for that time to see each other again. To get ready for that, Jocey and I rewrote a song to turn it to a Silver Bay song. It is All Summer Long by Kid Rock. Here are the lyrics if you would like to read. Hopefully it can get put to music someday. Enjoy!!
But now the summer is over. I have started watching people leave, many more leave today. Some I got really close with and will miss them. But like every year, no matter what, next time you see them, it will pick up right where it left off. It's never good bye, it's see you later.
Summer turns to fall, and you watch change happen right in front of your eyes. The leaves change colors, the lake cools down quickly, squirrels and chipmunks storing their food for the winter, the sounds of camp are gone. It is time to get ready for the next summer. We all cannot wait for that time to see each other again. To get ready for that, Jocey and I rewrote a song to turn it to a Silver Bay song. It is All Summer Long by Kid Rock. Here are the lyrics if you would like to read. Hopefully it can get put to music someday. Enjoy!!
It
was 2012, my thoughts were there I was ready
Time
to be at a place we all love
The
sun was showing and there was a warm wind blowing
It
was summertime finally at the bay
Looking
at the north star, sitting by a campfire
It’s
the simple things in life that make us Emps
Playing
softball until we sweat but man I never will forget
The
way the moonlight shined upon the lake
And
we were trying different things, we were doing crazy things
Jamming
out by the lake to our favorite song
Having
ice cream at the store, not thinking about tomorrow
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
We
were tanning on the ERC
Listening
to music at the PERC
It’ll
forever hold a spot inside my soul
We’d
blister in the sun, we couldn’t wait for work be done
To
hit that sand and play some volleyball
And
we were trying different things
And
we were doing crazy things
Jamming
out by the lake to our favorite song
Having
ice cream at the store, not thinking about tomorrow
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Now
nothing seems as cool as
A
clear lake swimming pool
Or
how we thought the summer would never end
Sometimes
I hear a song and I start to sing along
And
think, man I’d love to see that place again
Man,
I’d like to see that place again
And
we were trying different things, we were doing crazy things
Jamming
out by the lake to our favorite song
Having
ice cream at the store, not thinking about tomorrow
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
And
we were trying different things, we were doing crazy things
Jamming
out by the lake to our favorite song
Having
ice cream at the store, not thinking about tomorrow
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Singing
sweet home silver bay all summer long
Sweet
home silver bay yeah
Singing all summer long
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Bring it on
I am coming up to my last week of class. We finished our last new material and it is review until next Thursday for the final. As we finished lecture we looked at each other and couldn't believe where the time went. We started as people who were timid and are finishing ready to take on the world and help people look and feel better. Some have already started and others are finding their place to start. We all know we will be there for each other whenever it is needed. It's been a great ride and I would never have changed it for anything.
As for me, I have changed completely and am more driven than ever. Remember that challenge I was talking about? Well I am signed up for the Adirondack Ragnar Relay Race. 198 mile relay race. I am training hard for it and cannot wait. It is definitely something that is a challenge and will test everything I have learned in class. I have a plan for a direction in life and am working hard for it. Everything will fall into place and I cannot wait to see what it brings.
This summer is all about planning, practicing, and training. Have the perfect place for that. And in 6 weeks, life begins for me and lives will be changed all around me. Are you ready, because I know I am.
Joke: why didn't the skeleton cross the road?
Because he didn't have the guts.
Monday, May 28, 2012
What have you done?
So I was speaking with a few people at the Waltham YMCA the other day. We were discussing different activities and challenges we have each been through. As one girl who works in the preschool was telling us everything she has done, which is a long list of things that is just too much to write down but she is pretty bad ass, it made a couple of the people in the group ask a question, "wow what have I done with my life." I mentioned some of the things I have done, even though no where near close to the extreme things she has done. Sure I have travelled around, been to some amazing countries, and met countless people. Now I am almost finished my personal training class, one month left by the way, and I get challenged daily to push myself to compete and finish crazy workout challenges.
Some of these challenges are just absolutely insane. Before this class, I never would have even thought of doing them, or even finishing them. These challenges have also helped me gain confidence in myself. I watch other classmates, age range from 19-61, guys and gals, grow, push themselves, and gain confidence as well. We see things differently now and think that we can accomplish any task they throw at us. Tonight I was watching American Ninja Warrior, and I found myself thinking, "what can I do to challenge myself even more?" Besides the whole challenge of life and finally starting work in a month, what else can I do physically to challenge me. I have a few ideas, but need some more. So if you have any let me know! Maybe I am going through another mid life crisis ( I think I have been going through one for most of my life haha ).
It never hurts to challenge yourself and see how far you can push your body. I know it has helped me build self esteem and confidence. Maybe a little cockiness as well but that never really hurts haha.
And tonights quote:
Some of these challenges are just absolutely insane. Before this class, I never would have even thought of doing them, or even finishing them. These challenges have also helped me gain confidence in myself. I watch other classmates, age range from 19-61, guys and gals, grow, push themselves, and gain confidence as well. We see things differently now and think that we can accomplish any task they throw at us. Tonight I was watching American Ninja Warrior, and I found myself thinking, "what can I do to challenge myself even more?" Besides the whole challenge of life and finally starting work in a month, what else can I do physically to challenge me. I have a few ideas, but need some more. So if you have any let me know! Maybe I am going through another mid life crisis ( I think I have been going through one for most of my life haha ).
It never hurts to challenge yourself and see how far you can push your body. I know it has helped me build self esteem and confidence. Maybe a little cockiness as well but that never really hurts haha.
And tonights quote:
My mother never saw the irony in calling me a son-of-a-bitch.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Keep on Keepin on
So it has been a while again. I guess either nothing is going on or I am not very interesting. Haven't figured out which one yet.
I have done a lot of thinking lately about things and who I am. I see that I am growing up in some of my thought processes, but I feel more alive and younger than ever. I have more energy and more confidence as well. This class that I have been taking has helped me figure out who I am and given me the confidence to go after what I want. Still haven't figured out what exactly it is I am going to be doing, but that time will come.
There is something missing that I cannot put my finger on however. It confuses me, but I know that at some point it will fall into place. Crazy shit happens when you least expect it. We all have experienced that moment when something or someone pops in and changes your life. It can be positive or negative, but just know that for some reason it happened. Even if you have to let whatever it was go, you move on to bigger and better things. Sometimes you may not want to, and sometimes you just don't have a choice. You just keep on keepin on.....
I have had writer's block recently, but I will leave you with a quote:
I have done a lot of thinking lately about things and who I am. I see that I am growing up in some of my thought processes, but I feel more alive and younger than ever. I have more energy and more confidence as well. This class that I have been taking has helped me figure out who I am and given me the confidence to go after what I want. Still haven't figured out what exactly it is I am going to be doing, but that time will come.
There is something missing that I cannot put my finger on however. It confuses me, but I know that at some point it will fall into place. Crazy shit happens when you least expect it. We all have experienced that moment when something or someone pops in and changes your life. It can be positive or negative, but just know that for some reason it happened. Even if you have to let whatever it was go, you move on to bigger and better things. Sometimes you may not want to, and sometimes you just don't have a choice. You just keep on keepin on.....
I have had writer's block recently, but I will leave you with a quote:
Virginity is like a soapbubble, one prick and it is gone.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Truckin....
SO it has been a while since I wrote again, sorry about that. Life happens as you may know. You live and you learn and just keep on truckin. That's all you can do right?
There are many bumps in the road, and boy do I have a road full of them haha. It's like a road road in Boston or in Pennsylvania, I am always swurving around trying to avoid them, even though I know it is inevitable. But every once in a while, you hit that nice straight and quiet patch, and you just sail through. What I did notice is that those are the fastest parts because it is so enjoyable that you get caught up and forget the rest. Then all of a sudden, BAM, pothole....and you wake up and go back to reality. But it takes those nice patches to make you appreciate what the road has to offer. Even though you may not like everything about the road, you have to accept it and keep going down it because the road leads to somewhere and you won't know until you get there.
Some amazing things have come into my life recently, and good things have happened. Do you get to keep it all, no, but at least you have the memories and know that there is good out there. Those things were given to you for a reason and even if you have to move forward without some of them, just accept it and keep going. It is hard not to look back and wonder, but once you pass it, the road has already made up its mind and there is no going back to change directions. I am sure everyone has certain things they wish they could go back and change, I know I do, but we cannot. Just keep truckin......
Quote: Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings.
There are many bumps in the road, and boy do I have a road full of them haha. It's like a road road in Boston or in Pennsylvania, I am always swurving around trying to avoid them, even though I know it is inevitable. But every once in a while, you hit that nice straight and quiet patch, and you just sail through. What I did notice is that those are the fastest parts because it is so enjoyable that you get caught up and forget the rest. Then all of a sudden, BAM, pothole....and you wake up and go back to reality. But it takes those nice patches to make you appreciate what the road has to offer. Even though you may not like everything about the road, you have to accept it and keep going down it because the road leads to somewhere and you won't know until you get there.
Some amazing things have come into my life recently, and good things have happened. Do you get to keep it all, no, but at least you have the memories and know that there is good out there. Those things were given to you for a reason and even if you have to move forward without some of them, just accept it and keep going. It is hard not to look back and wonder, but once you pass it, the road has already made up its mind and there is no going back to change directions. I am sure everyone has certain things they wish they could go back and change, I know I do, but we cannot. Just keep truckin......
Quote: Friendship is like peeing on yourself: everyone can see it, but only you get the warm feeling that it brings.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Well hello there
Hello again everyone! Been a while since I have let you all know whats going on and to say hi. Let's see, remember how in the first blog it was stated how fast life changes? (If not then you are not reading them and I am highly upset. Just kidding.) Well life is kind of moving in fast forward at the moment and in many different directions. But the best part is, I am enjoying the ride. There are still a few issues going on but there is so much good happening that I look past it knowing that it will all work out. It is something that I have been learning lately.
I am very excited that summer is approaching and cannot wait for shorts, sperrys, and heat. Got some ideas of places to visit such as Martha's Vineyard, Nantucket, whale watching, Silver Bay (of course, no summer is complete without that trip, and a softball game or 2, and HUMMMBOIUGUFKFCKVYA or however you spell it), and the Cape. Going to explore this area all I can, monetary pending of course. I have a feeling that this is going to be a great year and am anxious to see what it brings. There are a few things that I am excited for, that shall be nameless until the time is right.
In the coming week, I will be at Silver Bay for Au Pair weekend, thats right be jealous SBA'ers. Cant wait to breath that beautiful Adirondack NLG air and soak it in. Watch it snow now that I am saying this. I cursed me, dammit. Also my personal training class is going very well. Learning new stuff everyday and getting the hell kicked out of me in boot camps and workouts. Cannot wait to put people through these. If you want to get fit, give me a yell and boy do I got some workouts for you. Bring it on people.
I promise I will try to be better at this and will definitely keep you all informed and post some pictures soon. I leave you with a quote:
I am very excited that summer is approaching and cannot wait for shorts, sperrys, and heat. Got some ideas of places to visit such as Martha's Vineyard, Nantucket, whale watching, Silver Bay (of course, no summer is complete without that trip, and a softball game or 2, and HUMMMBOIUGUFKFCKVYA or however you spell it), and the Cape. Going to explore this area all I can, monetary pending of course. I have a feeling that this is going to be a great year and am anxious to see what it brings. There are a few things that I am excited for, that shall be nameless until the time is right.
In the coming week, I will be at Silver Bay for Au Pair weekend, thats right be jealous SBA'ers. Cant wait to breath that beautiful Adirondack NLG air and soak it in. Watch it snow now that I am saying this. I cursed me, dammit. Also my personal training class is going very well. Learning new stuff everyday and getting the hell kicked out of me in boot camps and workouts. Cannot wait to put people through these. If you want to get fit, give me a yell and boy do I got some workouts for you. Bring it on people.
I promise I will try to be better at this and will definitely keep you all informed and post some pictures soon. I leave you with a quote:
Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Life through me.
Just some random pictures I thought you all may like to enjoy. Some beautiful sights I have witnessed. I am sure that I will have many more.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Moving on......
I have come to the conclusion that much of the last 2 years of my life have been fake. Its hard to imagine that, especially when you put your entire heart and soul in it. But when you are told that there was only the relationship because I felt sorry for you and you needed help, you realize very quickly. And when it sets in, how hard is it to let someone back into your life. Questions pop in your head all the time, such as, will I trust someone else, will I take down my bubble and allow someone new into my life, etc. So many questions, with no easy answers.
These last 2 years that I thought were real, were not always great of course, but I was happy where I was. I felt that finally things were settling down and I could finally call a place home and life will go from there. It's what everyone wishes for. Oh how the tides can quickly turn. People change quickly and who you thought you loved, isn't that person anymore. You wonder who they are now and how they can say these things to you, when you gave your heart to them. What changed? It is something that probably can never be answered. Maybe they were like that the whole time but you were to blinded by love to realize it. (Which is usually the right answer).
They say the ones you love can hurt you the most. I come to realize that is very true. They know that button to push. When you finally feel you are over everything and can move forward, they find a way back in, and frustrate you even more. They say things to hurt you because they know they can. Why do they do this? Why do they feel the need to make you upset? What do they gain out of these petty fights? Isn't it easier to just move on and not look back? It is an emotional battle that seems never ending.
The issue after all of that is, how can you trust someone else. How can you let someone new in. Would you be afraid to give your heart to someone after such a battle. This is where I am today.
We all know that down the road everything will be ok and the past will be long gone. (I can't wait for that day).
Everyone make mistakes, and say things that they don't mean. But those things will stick in your head and they are hard to forget. Especially when they are directed to hurt your heart.
My advice is, move on with your own life. Why keep the fight going because it isn't benefiting anyone. It's only hurting you, and someday karma will win. Like I was told tonight, you may not be there to witness it, but just know it will happen someday.
These last 2 years that I thought were real, were not always great of course, but I was happy where I was. I felt that finally things were settling down and I could finally call a place home and life will go from there. It's what everyone wishes for. Oh how the tides can quickly turn. People change quickly and who you thought you loved, isn't that person anymore. You wonder who they are now and how they can say these things to you, when you gave your heart to them. What changed? It is something that probably can never be answered. Maybe they were like that the whole time but you were to blinded by love to realize it. (Which is usually the right answer).
They say the ones you love can hurt you the most. I come to realize that is very true. They know that button to push. When you finally feel you are over everything and can move forward, they find a way back in, and frustrate you even more. They say things to hurt you because they know they can. Why do they do this? Why do they feel the need to make you upset? What do they gain out of these petty fights? Isn't it easier to just move on and not look back? It is an emotional battle that seems never ending.
The issue after all of that is, how can you trust someone else. How can you let someone new in. Would you be afraid to give your heart to someone after such a battle. This is where I am today.
We all know that down the road everything will be ok and the past will be long gone. (I can't wait for that day).
Everyone make mistakes, and say things that they don't mean. But those things will stick in your head and they are hard to forget. Especially when they are directed to hurt your heart.
My advice is, move on with your own life. Why keep the fight going because it isn't benefiting anyone. It's only hurting you, and someday karma will win. Like I was told tonight, you may not be there to witness it, but just know it will happen someday.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
What's New?
So here is a life update.
School has been going very well. Have been learning some great things about working out. Also have been doing some crazy workouts. Last week consisted of a "warm up" that I wanted to die and my quads hurt like never before. Also did a nice 2 hour boot camp that apparently will be a weekly event. Looking forward to it....sarcasm. But it is going to be worth it. Also did an awesome tabata today. Trainer kicked my ass. Then had an interview today as well and was given a job as a personal trainer for a gym up near NH! I am pretty excited and already have 20 clients apparently. Interview was me coming up with a program for different types of people as well as training the head trainer. I am 3 weeks into my schooling and was good enough to get this position. Should be interesting.
We also had a mini SBA reunion in the city. Although it had to be on the coldest day of the frickin year ( thanks B Wock ). But it was a great. I have found my new favorite show, The Big Bang Theory. Love it! Apparently I have been told that I have the attitude of Sheldon, check it out and see if it is true.
This is kind of a rambing post because I was in the middle of watching The Big Bang Theory so I was distracted, but things are going well and I am excited for these new opportunities. I hope everyone else is having a great year so far and leave a post to be able to catch up on your lives.
Live Laugh and Love....
School has been going very well. Have been learning some great things about working out. Also have been doing some crazy workouts. Last week consisted of a "warm up" that I wanted to die and my quads hurt like never before. Also did a nice 2 hour boot camp that apparently will be a weekly event. Looking forward to it....sarcasm. But it is going to be worth it. Also did an awesome tabata today. Trainer kicked my ass. Then had an interview today as well and was given a job as a personal trainer for a gym up near NH! I am pretty excited and already have 20 clients apparently. Interview was me coming up with a program for different types of people as well as training the head trainer. I am 3 weeks into my schooling and was good enough to get this position. Should be interesting.
We also had a mini SBA reunion in the city. Although it had to be on the coldest day of the frickin year ( thanks B Wock ). But it was a great. I have found my new favorite show, The Big Bang Theory. Love it! Apparently I have been told that I have the attitude of Sheldon, check it out and see if it is true.
This is kind of a rambing post because I was in the middle of watching The Big Bang Theory so I was distracted, but things are going well and I am excited for these new opportunities. I hope everyone else is having a great year so far and leave a post to be able to catch up on your lives.
Live Laugh and Love....
Monday, January 9, 2012
Week 1
So let me begin by saying I have only been here for one week and I have already learned some interesting things. For one, red lights in Boston are way too long. Understable because people drive like asses, but still annoying. Second, I realize how dependent on technology we are.
As I am driving around Boston, I tend to see what other people are doing in their cars. I enjoy people watching because you never know what you are going to see. What I did notice is technology plays a very important part in our lives. Every stop light someone is texting, or check facebook or talking on the phone. Most cars have GPS in the windows. Coming from someone who grew up without a cell phone and who had to use maps to get anywhere, I adapted to this technology change as well, I realize I do the same thing. I always wonder what people are doing so I check facebook so much during the day. I can get anywhere and just listen to Helen (my GPS) tell me where to turn and how far I have to go, and I can enjoy the sights of this new venture I am on. My cell phone is basically a part of me as well as everyone elses. We can do anything from saying hi to a friend to ordering a pizza from Domino's to even looking for work.
I do miss the days of going out and riding my bike up and down the road, or playing basketball for hours on end in my yard, and not worrying what everyone else is doing. Life was simple back then. Now we Like every comment and picture people put on Facebook. We post whatever it is we are doing so someone will Like it and make conversation. Oh how life has changed. Makes me think of other changes in my life time, such as, downloading whole albums before they even come out, maps, cassette tapes and even cds. I bought a smart phone this past summer and it was obsolete before the year was even up. Life changes quick and we have to keep up with it. I can only imagine how life will be for my grandkids and what cool new gadgets and toys they will have, and how will I change to that.
As I am driving around Boston, I tend to see what other people are doing in their cars. I enjoy people watching because you never know what you are going to see. What I did notice is technology plays a very important part in our lives. Every stop light someone is texting, or check facebook or talking on the phone. Most cars have GPS in the windows. Coming from someone who grew up without a cell phone and who had to use maps to get anywhere, I adapted to this technology change as well, I realize I do the same thing. I always wonder what people are doing so I check facebook so much during the day. I can get anywhere and just listen to Helen (my GPS) tell me where to turn and how far I have to go, and I can enjoy the sights of this new venture I am on. My cell phone is basically a part of me as well as everyone elses. We can do anything from saying hi to a friend to ordering a pizza from Domino's to even looking for work.
I do miss the days of going out and riding my bike up and down the road, or playing basketball for hours on end in my yard, and not worrying what everyone else is doing. Life was simple back then. Now we Like every comment and picture people put on Facebook. We post whatever it is we are doing so someone will Like it and make conversation. Oh how life has changed. Makes me think of other changes in my life time, such as, downloading whole albums before they even come out, maps, cassette tapes and even cds. I bought a smart phone this past summer and it was obsolete before the year was even up. Life changes quick and we have to keep up with it. I can only imagine how life will be for my grandkids and what cool new gadgets and toys they will have, and how will I change to that.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Changing of Paths
Well let's see.
I begin a new year, in a new place with a very different life than the last year. I thought I had it all figured out then, a great job, great place to live and over all very happy. I was finally growing up and ready to settle down. But I should have seen it coming. The way my life has always been, it changes when I least expect it. I wasn't ready for it of course, but I always adapt to the change and move forward. This time no different. I am excited for this path that I am on now, and am going to make the best of it like I always do.
This change happened, well had to happen, much quicker than the others. I didn't have very long to figure out the next step. I went back and forth between ideas and couldn't make up my mind. "What do I do," I asked myself almost every minute of every day. Basically, was about ready to flip a coin and just go. Heads one way, tails the other. (Sounds like a song for Jimmy Buffett or Kenny Chesney.) It is funny how life works however. When you least expect it, a path forms.And it happened in the form of a random lady that I was speaking to just before I left my gym for the day.
She walked in at 4:50pm to work out. She was all happy and cheerful because she was cancelling her membership after her workout to move to Atlanta to start a new life. To get away from whatever it was that was dragging her down. I laughed and said that I was in a similar situation, but didn't have a destination yet. She started asking me questions about what I want to do. Many people have done this but for some reason, I could relate to her because she was doing what I wanted to do. Long story short, she told me about a program her son did and how it has changed his life and he loves what he does now.
I looked into the program and all of a sudden, here I am, sitting in Boston, MA. Attending the National Personal Training Institute. Applied one day, got accepted the next. Applied for student loans, approved that day. It happened so fast and so quickly, that I thought to myself, maybe this is what I am supposed to be doing. How can it work out so quickly and so easily? There has to be some sort of catch or issue that will happen. There always is.
I arrived on New Years Day without a job. It is 3 days later and I have a job if I really want it at a nice restaurant, that works with my hours for my class. Again I think, way to quick. How is everything falling in to place so easily? I guess I shouldn't look too much in to it because it is working.
I am ready to take this challenge head on and to enjoy my life again. I look back at all the different paths my life has taken me, all the different places I have seen, and all the different people I have met. I do not regret any of it. I am sure people look at me and wonder when am I ever going to grow up and settle down. (I am very sure because I have been told that by people.) My life will settle down when the path I am on settles me down. That is my new answer.
I begin a new year, in a new place with a very different life than the last year. I thought I had it all figured out then, a great job, great place to live and over all very happy. I was finally growing up and ready to settle down. But I should have seen it coming. The way my life has always been, it changes when I least expect it. I wasn't ready for it of course, but I always adapt to the change and move forward. This time no different. I am excited for this path that I am on now, and am going to make the best of it like I always do.
This change happened, well had to happen, much quicker than the others. I didn't have very long to figure out the next step. I went back and forth between ideas and couldn't make up my mind. "What do I do," I asked myself almost every minute of every day. Basically, was about ready to flip a coin and just go. Heads one way, tails the other. (Sounds like a song for Jimmy Buffett or Kenny Chesney.) It is funny how life works however. When you least expect it, a path forms.And it happened in the form of a random lady that I was speaking to just before I left my gym for the day.
She walked in at 4:50pm to work out. She was all happy and cheerful because she was cancelling her membership after her workout to move to Atlanta to start a new life. To get away from whatever it was that was dragging her down. I laughed and said that I was in a similar situation, but didn't have a destination yet. She started asking me questions about what I want to do. Many people have done this but for some reason, I could relate to her because she was doing what I wanted to do. Long story short, she told me about a program her son did and how it has changed his life and he loves what he does now.
I looked into the program and all of a sudden, here I am, sitting in Boston, MA. Attending the National Personal Training Institute. Applied one day, got accepted the next. Applied for student loans, approved that day. It happened so fast and so quickly, that I thought to myself, maybe this is what I am supposed to be doing. How can it work out so quickly and so easily? There has to be some sort of catch or issue that will happen. There always is.
I arrived on New Years Day without a job. It is 3 days later and I have a job if I really want it at a nice restaurant, that works with my hours for my class. Again I think, way to quick. How is everything falling in to place so easily? I guess I shouldn't look too much in to it because it is working.
I am ready to take this challenge head on and to enjoy my life again. I look back at all the different paths my life has taken me, all the different places I have seen, and all the different people I have met. I do not regret any of it. I am sure people look at me and wonder when am I ever going to grow up and settle down. (I am very sure because I have been told that by people.) My life will settle down when the path I am on settles me down. That is my new answer.
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